Trigger warning ~ abortion/child loss. There is so much in life to be grateful for, even in the challenges and sorrows we face. How many times do things that feel so heavy, lead us eventually to an unexpected joy? The hardships and struggles I’ve had to face, pale so much in comparison to that of others, and especially those of Jesus Christ. He is God, yet subjected himself to the burdens of being human in order to sacrifice himself, both in his numerous physical, emotional and mental challenges as a human, and in his actual sacrifice in death upon the cross for salvation of repentant sinners. In order to accomplish the purpose of this task, he had to refuse to use his omnipotence to his own, very human aid.
I cannot even begin to imagine how quickly I would have caved in to relieve my challenges, had I been him. But He knew….He knew the joy that awaits all of those who in full truth did, do, and will repent before death. He knew the glorious and joyful life with Father Son and Holy Spirit and all the Heavenly Host that await them in eternity. He knew the sorrows in our life would draw his precious children closer to Him and help us trust in Him. He knew that the loss of my own children would lead me to be called to help pregnant mothers choose life for their own children. He knew I would have compassion for those who chose abortion and later wanted to heal from the pain of it because I would be able to sympathize, having had to allow the doctors to kill my children to save me when twice I had tubal pregnancies. He knew one day I would be able to forgive myself for that choice because He held me close to his heart as I grieved for over 20 years before understanding fully that it was the only choice I had and that He needed me to help those post abortive mother heal and know that if they too repent they can one day find joy in heaven with their aborted children and with Him!
I am grateful to have found purpose in my pain. I am grateful for Christ’s sacrifice for me, and you, and everyone who will ask for and accept his mercy in truth. I am grateful for the autoimmune disease I currently battle because it has slapped me down into a level of humility I never had to face before, and has strengthened my resolve to overcome and to be self sufficient again. I am grateful for the people that disease has put in my life as medical staff/friends/supporters and shown me that many are there for me, who I never before knew cared and for the grace with which they support me in my battle. I am grateful for my family, who, each with our own struggles, are always there for each other. I am grateful for the lives of every person who has ever played a part in my life, good or bad, kind or mean, healing or harming, peaceful or disruptive, compassionate or abusive, because they have helped me become the person I am. I am grateful. I am SO VERY Grateful! I feel as though I am blessed…. God is good.
I am grateful for you. I am praying for you…Please, pray for me, and my family and each other too. You ARE Loved~ Mary
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